Tuesday, July 26, 2022

A Gotcha Day anniversary, a Bridge Day anniversary, and a new angel

The PDX pride mama here.  This post is not one that I wanted to ever write.  I'll start with the good thing.  Today is Freya's & Heimdall's 12th Gotcha Day anniversary!  After Skylar went to the Bridge 12 years ago (that was on the 23rd), I was looking at kittens online at Salem Friends of Felines and saw Heimdall's picture.  I showed it to Scott, then he saw that Heimdall had a sister.  We knew then that they had been sent to us by Skylar & Lydia, because they looked so much like them.  Freya & Heimdall were 3 1/2 months old when we got them.

Now, the sad news.  Only Freya is here to celebrate.  Heimdall went to the Bridge on the 23rd, so he now shares a Bridge Day date with Skylar.  In April, Heimdall came down with a really bad double ear infection.  We took him to a vet we hadn't used before (mistake #1) instead of our regular vet because we couldn't get in to our regular vet in a decent amount of time.  The other vet diagnosed his double ear infection, gave us medication (actually four different ones) and we were told that he had a "mass" in his right ear that would continue to grow and had ruptured his eardrum.  Mistake #2, because the "mass" was actually an ear polyp which ended up shrinking back down without damaging the eardrum.  We were told that he would have chronic ear infections, a head tilt, and awkward gait for the rest of his life.

Because of this (mis)diagnosis, we didn't get him rechecked more than once after that initial visit (mistake #3).  He started going downhill fast the last three weeks.  He was very lethargic, had given up, and wasn't interested in food (although he was still eating, just more because he thought he should rather than because he felt he needed to eat).  He shakily climbed up onto the futon to snuggle with his daddy the last couple days of his life.  He wasn't grooming himself at all, even when he fell down in the litter box, since we took him in to that vet in April, and he started to resent me trying to clean him up.  He had litter caked in-between his toes that he didn't take care of, so his daddy and I had to.  We made the appointment to put him to sleep.

At his appointment (with our regular vet), we were told that his eardrums were intact, his ear canals had a lot of debris in them but that the vet could see the eardrums which didn't look damaged at all.  The vet said there were small polyps (probably what the other vet had called a mass) that were not impeding the ear canal at all.  However, because his sinus infection had blown all out of proportion due to being untreated (because we had thought the symptoms were from ruptured eardrums and the mass), his poor body was so weakened that he would've had a long, uphill battle to regain his health.  I made the decision to not put him through that and to put him to sleep instead.  I held him while the vet gave him his shots.  He growled at the vet and stuck his tongue out when the vet put his paws back onto my lap, but then he put his head down on my hand like he loved to do and was gone.

We brought his body back, opened the box, and let the others say their goodbyes.  Freya curled up in the box lid, so we had one dead tuxie twin in one side of the box and one live tuxie twin in the other.  She's kind of lost without him, since they have never been apart since they were littermates.  I had to lift her out of the lid twice so that I could hand the box with Heimdall's body to his daddy.  He buried him by the roses under the cedar tree in the backyard, near where Carbon and Rori are buried.

I just finished writing an e-mail to the other vet, telling them what happened.  So many mistakes on their part and on our part.  We feel so guilty for letting our boy down by not taking him for a second opinion.  We should've done more for him.  He should be here to celebrate today with his sister.

Heimdall with his favorite toy
Heimdall with his favorite toy, a fishy potato chip clip

Heimdall Skylar

March 24, 2010 to July 23, 2022

12 comments:

meowmeowmans said...

We are so, so sorry. Thank you for loving Heimdall so much. I know your hearts are broken, and we send you much love and gentle purrs as you miss your special boy. Please, please do your best to be kind to yourselves at this very sad time.

Memories of Eric and Flynn said...

I am so sorry for the sad news about Heimdall and send my condolences. Happy Gotchaversary to Freya.

Summer said...

I am so very sorry about Heimdall. The veterinary profession is suffering badly right now, and as a result, so are the patients. This makes me sad because there are so many kitties that aren't getting the care they should.

Zoolatry said...

It is so very sad that Heimdall was lost too soon, and in such an unfortunate way, may he rest well now, forever. We have sent you a Forever Memory image in his honor, let me know how you would like for me to proceed, thank you, Ann.

Brian said...

Happy Gotcha Day Freya. We're very sorry to hear about handsome Heimdall and we send purrs and hugs to you.

The Florida Furkids said...

We're so sorry to hear about Heimdall and even sadder because of the circumstances. (((hugs)))

Ruby Rose and the Big Little Angels 3 said...

You are now undertaking the long journey through grief. While others may share that grief we all walk it alone. There are no right or wrong paths, no proper way to carry oneself, no set amount of time to complete it. Some steps will come easier than others. There will be rogue waves of grief that you won’t see coming, and knock you back days. But you will come through it. If you get lost let us know. We have been through it before and we might be able to help you find the way out.

John Bellen said...

Please don't feel bad about any mistakes you think you may have made with Heimdall. As our cats would say, we're only human. We do our best and they insticntively know that. I have no doubt that Heimdall was grateful for the twelve years he had with his loving family, twelve years he may not have had at all, if you hadn't chosen him and his sister. Godspeed, Heimdall, and God bless your family.

ANGEL ABBYGRACE said...

I am very very sorry to hear about the loss of your darling furbaby Heimdall. Please be patient and kind to yourself, although I know it is hard. Wishing you healing light and peace. Purrs,
Annabelle & Boo

catladymac said...

We are so sorry to read of the loss of handsome Heimdall. We send purrayers and Power of the Paw to all who love him as he starts on his next adventure.

pilch92 said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your handsome boy. XO

Meezer's Mews & Terrieristical Woofs said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your handsome and precious Heimdall.
May all the memories you made with him be forever in your hearts.